just stop.

see, i don't want to wonder anymore about what you're thinking, what you're doing, or who you're doing it with. you were right, i need to move on. but i don't know if i can, unless you just stop.

stop what? i'm sorry i called. i'm sorry i keep talking to you. i'm trying to get better. what else can i do?

why don't you just stop. stop making me so crazy!

stop being so paranoid!

stop telling me what to do!

stop wasting your life on stupid things!

stop making me want your approval!

stop always being there when i need you..

(Cappie and Casey, Greek TV Series)

may be we both need to stop.

i want these.

on my 21st birthday:

i want oreo cheesecake. i want cookies and cream flavored ice cream. i want ibu's nasi ayam semarang. i want family to gather up. i want my granma to stay healthy. i want my friends will stay for a lifetime. i want to lose 10kgs. i want to stay close with My Almighty God. i want to have a better immune system. i want to be better. i want to graduate this term. i want to be able to be always grateful for all i have now.

back again.

hey, meet me again. after almost half-a-year abandoning this blog, i am back again.

why coming back?
after having so many thoughts, i find that writing, even it's hard to do, still do good to me. i read my old posts and i realized, of how i was so true. i admitted what i felt, and put that down on writings, instead of keeping it to myself like i do lately.

nice to see you again,
my wonderful and tralala world :)